My first show was 4/6/85 in Philly, and I loved it, I was on the bus right away. Now I am happy to say, and be able to realize what I am saying it, (!!) that I'm still on the bus, but I also got on the wagon!, 3 years 3 months clean and sober.
The Grateful Dead is ALL about the music, the sound, the togetherness. It's not about what you can get in the lot that will totally annihilate you.
I want to read through all these posts, but I just trekked into the forum for the first time tonight and I'm a bit tired. Glad to know everyone is out there!!
Stay strong, stay sober and listen to the music play!!!
Nothin' left to do but smile, smile, smile!
Just wanted to say thanks for the feedback and support. For the first time I'm talking about it and picking up the phone. I'm 41 yrs old and about to start a new journey. It's about time. The month rehab really helped, something I was always against. I think it might have saved my lilfe. I just have to stay the course. What a feeling waking up with a clear head.
I went to my first rehab program in 1983, and was clean for about a year. But old habits kicked in again, and I was a bad boy until 1998, a few months here and there clean and sober, but nothing permanent. I was not happy where my life was at that point, and finally wanted to lift the fog and haze from my life, and now 9 years clean, and serene, something I am glad I did. I will never go back. I attend a meeting or two a week still, to keep my program working. But it took many a night talking to my sponser till dawn, and a dozen meetings or more a week, and this worked for me. Deadheads are rare in the UK, let alone one's that are Wharf Rats, but I sure wish that there was one at least that could understand seeing shows, loving the music and people/scene. I miss that part of my life. Keep your program working and go to lots of meetings.
I go to NA meetings in Missouri. Ive been clean 9 or 10 months now but still feel like a newcomer. I havent started working the steps yet but the meetings still help me stay on the right path. Drop me a line if you ever need to talk. Keep coming back!
i went to a lot of wonderful shows as a whole bunch of us have. you are experiencing a divine opportunity right now brother. you got a 28 day kickstart into looking at things differently. i am 2 yrs and the clouds have definately cleared. hell, now i hear all these little idiosyncracies that were not in my earbuds before. i suggest you surround yourself with real people that don't have to drink and use shit drugs to see what is so much there already in front of them. our little wharf rat page here had a too long of a gap recently as you may have noticed and i offer the chance as a whole slew of others involved within this thread do to: stay connected. there is a bunch of support here and other places in the real world: if you seek it. stay in "touch" and have a grateful day! peace, shack
Just released from a 28 day inpatient. I need all of the support I can get. Hitting an NA tonight. Someone please give me a shout out please.
I have to do this. Hopefully see the Wharf Rats somewhere out there. Peace.
HippieChuck -ive heard rumors of the dead possibly touring this summer...am i misinformed,does anyone have that same idea?????
This goes to all the wharf rats who might be working in a job,where they can be tested on drugs.AND THIS IS NO JOKE!...it has been prooven that if you eat a bagle with poppy seed or a cake with a poppy seed filling and afterwards undergo a drugtest u will b tested positive for opiates..and might loose your job not even knowing why.peace to u guys and stay clean!!!
WWJD...something i picked up from shack's posting...what would jerry do?...and i think i will use it, thanx shack!
stay safe and feel good!
... fade away! bop bop bop - bop bop! ya know kids, the gd were and still are a really wide band. in a ton of ways, they had "dimension." that is what i like about not gettin' buzzed just to be able to listen to them. the "trip" i am on now is one that includes the fellas almost everyday. my first song at my first show was a 'bucket.' go figure, i partied ass. wow, i am glad that viewpoint is over. the stance i have on the music now is all about another dimension. no drugs and no alcohol is a way to stand there and listen (and dance) and have this awesome communication with the artists that i care about most in the world. we have all these people out there telling us how to act and who we owe an apology to (something that happened to me inna email) and these people just do not know the vantage point that includes my perspective. i am so lucky to have seen and feel this whole experience from a range of view. i really like the one i am experiencing now. i already did the other stance. it was good then and this is now. what would jerry garcia want me to do. i think to be true to myself and take a look at the world from "over here." ... you know our love will not fade away! have a grateful day! peace, shack